for me its like the last attachment was based on the way my therapist looks. she reminded me of my own mother... like blonde women seem to be more understanding and more relating to me. . its just me i guess its probally something to do with how my whole life my blonde hair was praised by family members.. idk.. this therapist does not have blonde hair.. the last attachement i had killed me. i mean i just don't know if its going to be a good thing to not attach myself to her and be okay, an beable to to enclose to her what i need to.. or express myself, when she don't seem that important to me.. i mean therapy is important but it feels less important because of her... i guess i don't know if i can attach myself to her if i needed to! or that's something that comes from her that attaches myself to her. whatever it is its not happening, and i know she is trying hard for me to stay in therapy and continue with her i just do not know if its going to be possible if i cannot attach.
i mean attachment does no got to be like the last attachment, but to feel something like she is important to me cuz i thin i do need to resolve the issues..
i mean can it happen this late. or like the last time it happened right away.