Thanks
I'm definitely not sure of anything happening to me as a child.
I just remembered the recurring nightmares I had of being molested when I was like four and to this day I have similar nightmares. I'm sure they weren't fantasies, or at least I hope not. That with the idea of a 5 year old engaging in cunnilingus freaked me out.

Perhaps nothing happened. Maybe I just don't want to accept the fact that I was a very sexual child. Being sexual is not something that I'm ashamed of. However, the way I acted on these desires (which I have not written and do not plan to write. It went beyond early masturbation) was quite dysfunctional and I would not encourage my behavior to anyone.

Thanks again