I've been doing so well lately... I've got a job, the access with my oldest daughter is going really well, my meds are being reduced, but all of a sudden I'm not coping with life. I am getting SOOO angry at the littlest thing which is not fair on my girls, and I am in tears often too. My nurse said that it is perfectly normal to feel like that as I stil have many big stressors in my life but a couple of days ago I started 'punishing' myself for all the bad that I am doing to ppl. My girls do NOT deserve to be continuously told-off and seeing me get so angry over nothing. I haven't self harmed for several months yet I went back to it so quickly and easily and it wasn't just a one-off either. I am so disappointed in myself, and am too ashamed about going back to it that I don't want to tell my nurse.
But that's all. Just had to get that out of my head!