I hear you! I have to be on meds. Otherwise, I'd be dead. My pdoc said that I will need to be on meds for the rest of my life. I accept that fact although I wish otherwise, of course.

That said - I draw the line with being overly sedated. I *hate* that feeling. I'll tolerate it for a couple of weeks if it is adjusting to starting the med...but if it is ongoing sedation all day long, I find it horrible.

I also hate weight-gaining meds. I gained 40 lbs on Lithium several years ago. However, it pulled me out of a really bad place so I would take it again if I had to. But ongoing sedation and weight-gaining meds are what I hate the most.

Besides those two side effects, I'm game. lol My pdoc is great and we work together, so to speak. I have input on what I am going to take, etc.

Take care. x