I'm 30 I have to take meds daily to regulate my mood and prevent episodes I can't drink bc of the mixture of meds also bc when I'm manic I'm so impulsive I don't know when to stop. I have such bad anxiety I can't around large groups of people. As a kid I never thought this is how it'd turn out. No fear of death or injury yet simple social interactions can throw me overboard. In all honestly, with the help of meds and patience of my family, that I KNOW word thin lol, I have a good life. But def not what you picture growing up before going crazy.