I had an hour or two out of the blue today when I felt "ok", kind of neutral, not happy but not negative and hopeless. It was weird. Then it ended and now I'm screaming inside my head, hating everything like usual and already bummed that tomorrow is another day I'll have to make it thru. I walked to the supermarket tonight because there's no food in the house but I couldn't develop an interest in any food, walked out with just bananas.