Hi Karen,
It kinda sounds like you really don't care for your new psychiatrist. If so, do you have a way of stopping the treatment with her and finding a new one? Maybe you could find one that you like and feel like you could open up to.
I have been fighting depression all my life as well, so know what you are feeling.
I hope you will start feeling better soon. Any time you need to talk, usually someone is on here to listen.
Take care,
Linda