I now see that I immediately attached to both my T's on day one. All it took was being, kind, empathetic, and understanding and all I wanted to do was sit next to them and put my head on their shoulder. Of course I expected that they would be overwhelmed by me, give up and send me off to someone else. T2 does not seem to be afraid of attachment and caused my transference to be real heavy fast. He always e-mailed me weekly checking in(very nurturing and healing) for the last four months. He encouraged me to reach out to him and I did. Now that he stopped doing that( I know I overwhelmed and disappointed him) I feel abandoned, bad about myself, depressed that it is true I am broken, and lost. I know if I emailed him he would respond but that would only be me fishing for attention and that is not right. My wounded inner child will always remain wounded and learn she can never have her needs fully met.