I'm supposed to be happy that I'm finally getting a break but somehow I'm feeling even more tired. I realisd that keeping myself busy really helped distract me from all the thoughts. Now when I have less things to do, I constantly have to find things to do to keep the thoughts from coming back. It's tiring. And I'm not going to be seeing my T for at least a month more. I have no idea what to do. I'm getting so bored and restless. I haven't left the house in a while and even sitting at home drives me insane because if I'm not doing something, then everything starts coming back. Can someone teach me a way to wipe all my memories or at least the ones that I don't want to have to relive over and over again? I'm sorry about ranting here but I haven't been sleeping properly and I've been doing so many things to keep my mind busy and now I'm just really really tired. T told me to write down every time this happens but I haven't been doing it. I worry more about whether I should even be sharing it with her and I end up just not writing it down at all. I don't know, what am I supposed to do to deal with this?