Bipolar runs in your family and it didn't skip you. That's good to realize because there's a clear genetic link. Your obsessive ruminating is a symptom. Agitation, too. So is hypersexuality and impulsiveness. Lao Tzu, the founder of Taoism, wrote, "Stop thinking and end your problems." That doesn't mean ignore your illness. Simply, accept it. Your brain is running at hyperspeed and you need to deploy the retro rockets to slow it down. You will burn out if you keep running at warp speed or faster.