Sweetie, I have been married for 24 years and have had a dog since 1992. Dogs love and care about you unconditionally. When you see that your dog seems sad, she is reaching out to you, she is sad and wants to take care of you.....She Loves You!!! You would not be better without her.....you need her and she needs you. Having another being, a fur-child helps you get up every morning, knowing that you have a sweet puppy can make it easier for you to take care of you. Dogs are smart....they sense our emotions. When you are having a tough day, reach out to her, lean on your sweet puppy and pet her, hold her in your arms and tell her how much you love her and would be lost without her. Having my two dogs puts a smile on my face. Yes, I know what you are going thru with the feelings of feeling like she deserves better. I have been suffering from the bipolar side of depression, really bad for the past 8 weeks. I have ignored my pups and I have suffered because of it. I feel awful about it, yet my hubby always reminds me to hug my dog or pet her when I am feeling bad, and yes, it does make me feel better. Dogs love unconditionally. They do not put judgments on you. They love you because you chose your dog to take care of----she does not deserve better, she deserves you and is waiting with open arms to love you---Do Not Get Rid of Her or Find a New Home for her, She Wants You!!! Getting rid of her would be The Worst Thing You Can Do For Yourself!!
Love your dog, hug her and know that she loves you no matter what, just because you are you. I feel that being Bipolar, we need to be reminded that we matter and we are loved unconditionally every day, and dogs meet that every need. I would be lost without my dogs. Please know that you deserve her, you are worthy of her and you chose her for a reason--you love her and she loves you. She does not deserve better, she just deserves you & yes, you are worthy of her!!!
Take good care of yourself sweetie!!
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Originally Posted by olivearchaeology
So last winter, I had to leave school early AGAIN because I was having issues with my medication, was misdiagnosed as clinically depressed (now bipolar 2) and couldn't cope with anything. The meds I were on turned me into a vegetable.
Anyway, I came home and had a manic, super implusive desire to have my own dog because I thought it would make me happier (this is after having an abortion and not coping well at all because it was really traumatic for me, among other issues I was having). I got this dog and she's a doll; just very hyper sometimes and can be overbearing. I got her because she reminded me of my boyfriends dog that I grew to love as my own (unhealthy, yes, probably). I love my dog sooo much but I'm still in recovery and there are days when I cannot deal with having her. And when I see her face sometimes when I'm having a low episode, it eats me up because I'm afraid she's miserable. She's a bit high strung and I just sometimes can't deal with it but I know I have to live with the decision I made to have her. I couldn't live with the guilt of giving her away to a better home either. I am doing better and the thoughts of giving her away have gone away but I can't help but imagine how much easier it'd be if I hadn't gone and brought her home (which caused major family drama, etc  Aso I'm afraid these thoughts will keep coming. I don't know how to deal with this.
Don't judge me, i know that was a lot. I just need reassurance that it's fairly normal to feel this way. It comes in waves when I'm overwhelmed with everything and can't cope and I still have to care for her. She deserves better. I suppose the possible grief of giving her away would outweigh the way I feel about having her sometimes. |