We just have to do the best with the hand we've been dealt. Whatever that hand is. Bipolar or not MANY people don't end up where they plan.

Also, during a mania I have many many plans to accomplish. Great things I can do. The amazing person I could be if only I do *this*. (Whatever *this* is can change from person to person.) When I come out of it, I always feel like I've let myself down. But that's not really true at all.

I was "supposed" to be a great artist. I was "supposed" to own my own business by now so that I could be a stay at home mom. I was "supposed" to have more than one child. At the very least, I was "supposed" to have a better paying job. But I don't. And I can't live in all the things I was "supposed" to have.