I don't even admit to ideation, as I've learned this can get you locked up. While it's nearly impossible to hide mania, I'm very cautious when discussing suicidal ideation -- self-censorship is the key. Where I'm from, the hospitals are little more than human warehouses. I never want to wind up in the hospital again. No offense, but I really don't understand people who go to the hospital willingly. They'll have to drag me kicking & screaming.