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Old Jun 15, 2013, 01:52 PM
Tiger_Lily Tiger_Lily is offline
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Originally Posted by emgreen View Post
I don't even admit to ideation, as I've learned this can get you locked up. While it's nearly impossible to hide mania, I'm very cautious when discussing suicidal ideation -- self-censorship is the key. Where I'm from, the hospitals are little more than human warehouses. I never want to wind up in the hospital again. No offense, but I really don't understand people who go to the hospital willingly. They'll have to drag me kicking & screaming.
I think with ideation it really depends on the professional. In my region, there is a significant shortage of psych beds, so you basically have to be a danger to yourself or others to be admitted. I know my pdoc doesn't want me in hospital for anything less as well. When I first started seeing him, I think he was worried that if he admitted me I would become a revolving door patient. He did have grounds to admit me though he didn't want to. I contacted him once when I had a very detailed plan, though not a specific date, and he called me to ensure I wouldn't act on it. We scheduled an emergency appointment the very next day and he didn't admit me. I did make sure I couldn't use the method though. Unless he believes that I will harm myself, or perhaps a child of mine if I have a postpartum reaction, I doubt he will ever admit me and I will never admit to suicidal intent.
Thanks for this!
emgreen