There were a few times that I had considered it, but didn't actually follow through. The most recent time was about a month ago (maybe 2 months ago I this point... I dunno... time kind of blurs together recently... beside the point). But I had been driving around for about an hour and I crossed this bridge (a bridge infamous in my area as being the "suicide bridge"... so much so that the city put up "suicide screens" to stop people from jumping off... again... beside the point). There were a few times where I slowed down my car thinking "yes... yes... that looks like a good spot. There's a break in the screen right there. I think I can climb over that...". Things like that. I didn't... clearly. But at the end of the bridge was a hospital that is known for it's psych ward. (Ironic? Coincidence? Probably why the bridge was known to be the hot spot for jumping?... beside the point... again... sorry) At this point I had actually slowed down to the point where I was turning my car into the parking lot. (Crying.) But ultimately I decided that I really didn't want to deal with being officially... I don't want to say "crazy"... but maybe just "not well".

I would never do that either in a session. If I'm going to do it I'm probably just going to do it. For me it's almost an embarrassing thing. To have the intent. There have been a few times (mostly in high school) when I did tell my friends. And the trouble with that is that when you come out of it, you just feel dumb. At least I did.