It's over...

I have finally had enough. For a week I have been trying to justify my decision to end it and out of nowhere it dawns on me: she is the one who justified it...

For months I made time for her, time to spend together and be alone, close, intimate, yet there was always an excuse. Always too tired, always a reason why she doesn't trust her mom to look after the kids for the night.

Today I am asked what I would like to do this evening as the children are staying at their granny's house and it is father's day, so I can choose. I answer and am told that I clearly dont want to spend time with her?
So it wasn't my choice... She wanted an answer I didn't give her. Its not like my plans excluded her, it just wasn't precisely what she wanted.
I am tired... I cannot do this any more.
No matter what I do or how I do it, it is always wrong, never good enough.

I will not be broken down by her any more. It would be better to be alone and moderately happy than completely miserable.

If you have any leftover LOVE AND HAPPY THOUGHTS to spare, I would be thankful if you threw them at me...

L&L