Thanks so much for responding. I was thinking that it could be my BC too because I was on a generic and switched to the real brand two packs ago.

"I am so sorry it happened to you. You were not a slut or a drunk and you did not deserve to be used and definitely not emotionally abused about it. "

You have no idea how much it means to hear that. I just keep feeling like I deserve to have something bad happen to me because I was vulnerable around people. My friends think that this behavior is a "typical college thing" that just happens. I refuse to think that being an instrument to another in a compromised position is not something that we should accept as typical. We deserve much better.

I'm really sorry that you have to deal with sex paranoia. I hope that your BF is kind and understanding about it.