I understand how you feel completely! This is me to a tee. I often sit around and get really sad and sometimes enraged at how much I hate myself and my life. Unfortunately I'm not very proactive and how I cope with it is to simply distract myself with other things such as hanging out with my boyfriend or one of my two friends and going to the bar. I don't get much joy out of doing anything. I guess we could both set small- easily accomplish-able goals that we could complete everyday such as reading up on a subject or exercising everyday and do things that get excite you. I'll be learning guitar starting July and I have a long term goal of getting a degree but it seems too far away to feel like I'm accomplishing anything, I'm slowly completing classes and that's it.