I put this as triggering, because I have no idea what may be triggering to some people, and feel like talking about sh could be to some.
I started cutting about a month and a half ago, and somehow about a week after I started one of my friends found out.
At first, he wouldn't talk to me, and I just assumed he was trying to process it, and understand what was going on with me. But after a few days, he started talking to me again, and what he was saying was really hurtful and negative.
This, along with the fact that my cutting was making me hate myself more, had me trying to stop cold turkey.
It worked for about 2 weeks.
I relapsed a few days ago. I'm learning that this is more addicting that I originally thought.
My friend now thinks that I've stopped, because I don't want to tell him again and have him hate me like he did for the 2 weeks that he knew I was doing it. I'm also not inclined to tell my parents or siblings, because I'm afraid of the same type of reaction.
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