Hi Rainbow8....
I'm known in this community as "allmostthere".

I've read your post and am deeply touched by what u said.
Years ago I gave up on therapy and refused to see any more therapist.
But since then life has presented to me some extremely difficult challenges that have tested my tolerance for survival to the max. Needless to say I'm back at therapy trying to give it another try. In the past I didn't give it much of a chance to work. Yes, I was resisting the whole process because I had to dig deep into my past which i tried so hard to hide in order for me to maintain a "normal" life and give everyone around me, including my family, the impression that everything was ok with me. What a lie that was.

Anyway, I have a good therapist now and i think we have established a good connection. My only fear, which i suppose is what u r feeling now, is losing her and having to start all over again. At the stage of my life right now I don't think I can continue if I can't keep my present T.

I'm probably much older than u and have gone through a lot in my life.
But although i may stumble and fall in my journey in life I somehow find the strength to carry on because i know that someday I will reach that raimbow in the sky.

Keep your faith in yourself and don't let anyone, or any situation, take that away from u... OK?

Wishing all the best,

"almostthere"