Dear T,
I really wish that I could talk to you. Things are so hard right now and I don't know that I am going to make it or even if I want to make it any more. Part of me wants to stop seeing you because then I can quit trying to keep functioning and just accept defeat. As long as I am seeing you I don't feel I can give up. But I'm so very tired of this struggle. It never seems to end. In the past several years I have lost everything even my hopes for a family. When is it finally acceptable to say enough is enough and I give up?