I had the very same fears. I thought the repressed memories would consume me. But it doesn't work that way. I am moving toward remembering but my alters are taking their time. It seems that sense my alters have been protecting me from the memories all these years they don't just let it all out at once. There is a part of me that wants to get it over with and just remember but I'm not ready. I am learning about us and slowly being able to accept that I was abused. This is a good site to learn more about how others are dealing with DID. I wish you well