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Old Jun 15, 2013, 11:58 PM
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Originally Posted by poptart316 View Post
I understand how you feel completely! This is me to a tee. I often sit around and get really sad and sometimes enraged at how much I hate myself and my life. Unfortunately I'm not very proactive and how I cope with it is to simply distract myself with other things such as hanging out with my boyfriend or one of my two friends and going to the bar. I don't get much joy out of doing anything. I guess we could both set small- easily accomplish-able goals that we could complete everyday such as reading up on a subject or exercising everyday and do things that get excite you. I'll be learning guitar starting July and I have a long term goal of getting a degree but it seems too far away to feel like I'm accomplishing anything, I'm slowly completing classes and that's it.
One of my goals is to complete my degree to. But I do need to tackle MUCH smaller things first, like washing the dishes. SIGH. Life is so hard with this disease. I am so tired.

But I have to keep going, so I must find a way to do so with less pain and more functionality. Setting smaller goals seems like it might work, a least some of the time, which si better than where I am now.

I really want to get my apartment in order, so that the space around me is neat and orderly. I think that will help with decrease my confusion and eliminating the chaos around me will decrease the chaos within me, at least in theory.

I want to be a better parent too.
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