My boyfriend cheated on me and expects me to be able to get in the mood and actually have sex with him like nothing ever happened. It was not only cheating, he had a whole separate life with her and her children, telling her he had nothing to do with me, and telling me the same thing about her. I should have caught on when she helped him with his resume and put down the address of where they were both living, but when confronted about it he played stupid and said he had no idea why she would put her address on his resume. I spent some time on the computer changing the address to his father's, where he was supposedly staying. I found out a whole lot of information when he accidentally forgot to sign out of his email account on my tablet. That information included the lovely fact that apparently he had gotten her pregnant at least twice. But I digress...he is mystified by the fact that I have very little desire to sleep with him, I can't stop picturing them together. I did agree to put it behind us and move on, but in order to do that I need to know a few things and I need to know just exactly how long he was making a fool out of me, all the while telling both of us that he loved only the one and the other is some obsessed psycho. He steadfastly refuses to discuss anything pertaining to her with me. I don't want gory details, just a few confirmations of some of my suspicions. It would help me greatly if I can just get a handle on how much of a fool he was making out of me. He spoke to several friends about the problems he was having with her, and went so far as to tell a mutual friend that he suspected I was on heroin or something, which is absolutely untrue, I have never tried it and have absolutely no desire to ever try it. I don't want anything to do with people that use it, it is just a really bad thing that I want no part of. So he humiliated me to a friend I think to justify distancing himself from me to spend more time with her. Sorry, I digressed again...tonight we had a pretty serious fight and the last thing he demanded was that when he gets home (after not sleeping here last night or communicating with me all day today) I should be ready, willing, able and desiring him. I find it kind of difficult to desire someone that couldn't bother to be faithful to me, and still finds reasons to spend the night elsewhere, although he swears up and down that he is done with her. He refuses to unfriend her on Facebook, and I have tried to explain how disrespectful that is to me, but he just doesn't get it and thinks that it's no big deal. Am I wrong for not wanting to jump his bones the second he walks in the door? Also I should mention that sex physically feels different to me, not nearly as pleasurable as it used to, and he is the first man that took the time to find my g spot, and also caused my very first vaginal orgasms at age 46. I am having a very hard time having orgasms, when he is trying to cause them, and sometimes I can't even do it myself. Is this because I am so upset by the whole debacle, or is something physically wrong with me? Please, I desperately need some advice! Thank you very muc in advance.