You remind me of a friend of mine, who thinks constantly, about everything, what goes on in the world, what goes on in the mind, just everything. I am like that too, my mind goes a million miles a minute, sometimes I give up trying to keep track of it. Genetic made perfect sense when she says the alcohol gets in the way. I can say that from personal experience, I have been sober for 13 years from alcohol now, and am never ceased to be amazed at the things I did (and said) while under the influence. Plus drinking made me more depressed and angry. When I drank, I was always angry. Now, my realest emotion is probably fear. I have a lot of unknowns in my life right now, and the unknown was always my biggest fear.