Thank you so much for this post Domino. It seems to have been the catalyst for giving me just the tinyest bit of strength which ive now remembered is all i need to drag myself up by my boot straps again. since i read this a couple of days ago ive been really struggling just to believe that im the only person who can pull myself out of this. even if there are people who would like to do that for me they cant. only i can.
i think recently ive been turning to people and asking for help like my T and this new pdoc and that seems to have sent me into a bit of a terrified tail spin. today is the first day in weeks i feel like i can do something for myself. even just all the small things like wash my dishes or clear my desk and i know that will be the first concrete step in caring for myself and taking responsibility rather than as you say waiting for someone to wave their magic wand.
so thank you again. its taken time for your words to sink in but they truly have helped. im glad that you are feeling more positive about yourself too. keep fighting and walking foward. i hope this period lasts for a while for both of us.
safe hugs if you would like them.
biiv