((((((((((((Linda))))))))))))
thank you for your kind post. i know i need to be honest with her. im trying so hard to. i think i might have tried a bit too hard though and then freaked a bit cos of all the stuff coming up and actually saying it out loud and then it just gets into the air and suffocates you til you need to scream. even at that i havent been totally honest just because when she asks five questions in a row about five excruciating topics by the time i get to the fourth or fifth question im so worn out i just say whatever and then have no energy left over to tell her things she doesnt think to ask about but i feel i should tell her. its so much work.
im trying to be as honest as i can and im being more open than with anyone ever before irl and i ll keep at it. its just so overwhelming and scary at times.
thank you again. the hugs are appreciated.
biiv