My H was a wonderful person when we first met. We fell madly in love instantly and mirrored how strongly I felt about him. We spent a lot of time together but were totally okay being alone. Neither of us felt smothered by all of the attention we lavished on each other because it was equal.

I got pregnant 3 months into our relationship, he proposed right away and while I felt some concern about the proposal I knew I wanted to be with him.

I was ****** to him for about 2 years and then I "grew up" and have been working my tail off in every way possible to repair our marriage.

Fast forward 4 years. H does not like me, does not want to be with me, and tells me he will not put up with me any longer. He has given up and refuses to even try but at the same time does nothing to leave. He tells me I will never change and we simply can't get along. This breaks my heart.

He is physically and verbally abusive. He has had multiple online affairs, lied many times, and he refuses to have sex with me. So why do I still love him? Why do I so desperately want to fix our marriage? Why won't he love me?