Thanks. I'll know if I have a therapist on Monday (well... maybe give her a couple of weeks to terminate me, just in case.) And since I need a pdoc too, I have very few options that I can afford, but theoretically I could just see the therapist here enough to get to see the attached pdoc.

I've never had consistent therapy, although its become clear I could use (just) a hand with life. That realization was like a light switch being turned on in a dark room.

The ADHD thing is crazy. Most people get a lot of benefit from a med for this condition. How could this have been missed? Was the fact I was gifted, in some ways, enough to hide this for this long? I'm not angry about it, but really...

I'm putting quite a bit of pressure on this, I'm sure, utterly unsuspecting lady T to simultaneously assuage all of the guilt, form a plan and to help me to trust her.

I'm probably freaking out simply because this is close, now. Of course, I will be sure to expand on my experience after I've seen the T.