I know why and when i get panic attacks. Trying to trick myself out of it is not the best solution. When you have a phobia of being scared its like being terrified in a room with no doors for an exit. all you can do at that moment is to get comfortable being in that room. Same with the panic attacks. If you panic over panicking it will just make you run around that empty room with no exits until your tired. There never will be an exit. All that must happen is that you have to change scenario. The room with no exits should not even exist in the first place. The same way it was triggered in an instance, the same way it should disappear.

I had tried everything, Psychiatrists, various psychologists, hypnotherapies, meditation and so on. All these just feed my panics and make them more present in my life. It has stopped me from doing many things such as going to cinemas, having fear of planes, dont want to go for coffee or restaurants etc. Not because I feel anxious in those situations, just because i had a panic at those areas and automatically each time i was going to do it again i thought i might have a panic and then i did.

I seem to be abit on the Opposite side of panics. I dont panic attacks when im with many people or in crowded places. I actually feel safer with more people around. although, I panic when im one to one person that maybe i dont know well or even if i do. This is because when i panic i need to leave the room and be alone, whereas i feel uncomfortable to leave the other person alone at the restaurant or cinema. The reason i panic at these situations is because i dont want to panic at those situations! Theres alot to it but I don't want to tire anyone with my ongoing personal thoughts.

So for me its just a circle of recurrent thoughts of not wanting to panic at certain situations and for certain reasons. Everybody has their own reasons.

I always thought that my panic disorder would be cured if I forgot I ever had one. What are your thoughts on this? Does anybody feel the same?