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Originally Posted by ultramar
How do you distinguish irritability/agitation/anger as part of a bipolar episode vs. irritability/anger as not part of an episode, in your experience? Are you only irritable/angry when you also have other symptoms of hypomania, or do you experience these outside of hypomanic episodes? I guess my question is, how do you tell the difference?
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I experience it both ways... My hypos are only euphoric for 3 or 4 days. After that I'm aggitated and irritable and just touching me will make me bite your head off, because I'm sensitive to touch at that time and my skin feels raw, not just because I'm being a right biyotch. I WILL "overreact" to the slightest thing, to the anything, the everything! I NEED to be left alone. The sound of my daughters voice is irritating, even if she's talking to my mom in the next room. Honestly, everything grates me. Its irritability on friggin steroids. No lies. Huge red flag is yelling at my daughter over something that didn't bug me yesterday, or shouldn't bug me at all. eg. Her singing a made up song. Yes I've gone off at her for that

Gosh I felt bad, but I promise I apologized...
Then like last Saturday, I woke up irritable, no other symptoms present, yet is was as intense as ever. My skin was crawling from the aggitation. It was so huge, larger than life, and so overwhelming I was in tears toward the end, because it just wouldn't leave my body. I locked myself up for 12hrs just so I wouldn't have to subject my daughter to me...
Normal irritability, is like when things and people are annoying me and I want them to STFU or dissapear because they work on my nerves and I spend my time imagining their heads exploding, or walking into oncoming traffic. Ok maybe someone elses is less violent, but mine is what it is
The former irritation on steroids, is when
everything is so aggravating every single irritation feels like nails on a chalkboard except my brain is the friggin chalkboard!
I hope that clarifies it some... I can try to do better if it doesn't.