It is sad to know that you believe God is responsible for all the pain and anguish of this world, but I do understand why you feel the way you feel.

I too, felt the same, until I educated myself about Him. I now understand the what and why of all this suffering and I also understand that it does not come from God, for He is incapable of such things.

Learn about Him; better yet, ask Him to help you to know Him and to understand. I did and so He did.

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