I wouldn't say you were insecure and paranoid on a date. That is something that should be saved for when you are already in the relationship. Girls don't want to go on dates with guys who admit that they are weak and certainly not someone they have to "put up with". A girl shouldn't have to "put up" with a guy. Who wants to do that? When you're dating you want to show yourself off, not bring yourself down. You may want to wait to date until you have the confidence you need to show yourself off.