Wikid, my T and I have discussed that sometimes I cannot talk and go almost complaetely inarticulate. He says that is normal when abuse happens before we have any words to put to the experience.

I also have a memory of being in the crib. My leg was stuck through the bars in a weird position and I remember the pain and the sense of being all alone and no one coming no matter how much I cried or screamed so I just gave up and laid there.