How long have you been single? Single motherhood can be a hard life. My friends who seem happy as single moms seem to have embraced the freedom of being their own boss. Answering to no one but themselves and free to make decisions for their kids that they used to have to negotiate. I don't think you are going to be single forever, but you need to make some peace with being single right now. You have closed the online dating account, and think of it as taking a much needed break from the jerks. Moms don't have time for jerks. Use this break to build some relationships with quality people. Your kids should not be the only ones you talk to. If you are turning to dating because you are lonely, then you may never find what you are looking for there. Your jealousy is normal. The loneliness needs to be addressed. Take that dating time and join some support groups for single moms, charitable or interest group. Adult co Ed sports through community centers? Church choir? Service project group? Ask a new friend to coffee. You will be amazed how many adult woman are looking for friends. Put yourself out there. Making friends also opens you up to meeting eligible single men!