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It's been awhile since I saw you here last. I'm sorry you are struggling right now, but I'm glad that your fibro has not been too bad for you lately.
Maybe it's a good thing to have your T intercept things now before you spiral down to the dreaded handcuffed transportation. Please try to talk with her and let her know how you are feeling and what you are thinking. If she is worth her weight, then she cares about you and wants you to succeed, not slip and fall out of control.
Thinking about you and saying a prayer or two as well. Please take good care of yourself!