Dear T,

I'm not doing very well right now - having a lot of obsessive thoughts/behaviors and I know I'm avoiding or something....I'm feeling like you can't help me anyway so why share any of this with you? But I know that's not the truth. I don't know why I'm so out-of-control-confused and maybe that's why I don't wanna share this crap with you. I'm afraid you are repulsed by my state of being