I've been super depressed for the last week or so and it's basically canceled out my anxiety. I went to a family gathering(father's day) for the first time in 3 years, a family member confronted me about my not showing up to family events and seeing my grandparents and cousins in over 3 years and I snapped. I was speaking non sense, I felt embarrassed I didn't want to talk about my mental issues I've been dealing with, everyone staring at me, I couldn't think, my thought process gone, I had to escape, the anxiety was back, full force....I felt I couldn't escape....I mellowed out and just rant to my car and drove home, I almost hit a tree I was so distraught.

Then came the tension headaches, I couldn't even listen to music in the car to calm myself, I needed silence, I felt dirty, I showered when I got home to wash away the shame, back to my room, my safe area.

My anxiety is bad again, probably was stil bad but I've been isolated the last 2 weeks with no triggers...

ugh..I'm so embarrassed