Understandably, my family has put some measures in place that help them feel safer with me right now. Thing is, this one part is really not helpful. It's a condition of them not taking back to the hospital, but I can't sleep here, so I am left tired and just waiting for the sun to come up so I can get back to my own bed (I'm supposed to go sleep in my mom's room after my wife goes to work). I'm quite off when I can't sleep, and I've been here for the last hour unable to sleep because I'm so uncomfortable. If I were in my own bed, I would be passed out at this point. But instead I'm on the floor wide awake and my head has started going a million miles an hour. :/ no one I know is online and able to talk. And I don't know how to approach them and say this is not helpful, and that I'm willing to do it if I feel unsafe, but this just isn't working...
It makes everything more hopeless when I can't sleep. And I certainly can't sleep right now. It's another 30 minutes until sunrise, and that is not soon enough. I can't even call anyone, because it would be disturbing my mom. Ugh.
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