I have been trying not to get too dependant on my t. I have tried from the start after my terrible stint with t1 last year.
T has encouraged me to contact her a lot out of sessions and I have always declined because I am afraid of becoming attached but alas, the attachment started long ago.
T was horrified last week that I waited three weeks to see her in a crisis rather than ring her so she could fit me in earlier. She couldn't believe I didn't ring her and said that I like to punish myself unnecessarily
I beg to differ, I am trying to manage on my own because I know that t will nont be around forever.
I suppose what i am tring to ask is, do we have to become dependant for our therapy to progress?
I am finding it hard to be close to t, when I know whse pulls all the strings and that one day she could pull all of them from under me and I would be left alone again and to face everything alone.
She has wanted me to become attached from the start, encouraging me to ring, hugging me, telling me she missed me during the week and that she was thinking about me. T is my last ts supervisor and she must know that I became too attached to T1 and probably told her to terminate me.
Maybe i am over thinking all of this but i wonder why T wants me to attach so much.