I didn't know where to post this, as its got to do with my job as well as my emotions.
I got bullied out of my job last year, they just accused me of things I didn't do constantly, until they finally walked me off the premises basically. I loved that job, until we got a new director, I think that's why I took it so hard...because they destroyed something I loved and worked my butt off to get it where it was.
I always struggled a bit with anxiety, but now it's like I've gone completely off the planet.
I have panic attacks, insomnia, I'm withdrawn, I have dizzy spells and my confidence is gone.
And the anger!! I have trouble expressing anger so I just shove it all down inside, but in the past six months its like I've kept 6 years worth of anger inside...and I'm ready to explode. I take everything so personally and I have terrible road rage. I have never been such an angry person or experienced this type of anger.
I think I'm also a bit depressed, all I want to do is stay at home and read books, just get out of this reality and into fantasy.
I have been thinking about escaping from my life, I don't want to die, just run away and live somewhere else where noone knows me.
I don't know what this is...I know the bullying is part of it. Maybe it's a post traumatic stress thing?