Dear T,
I am tired of your tongue in cheek fishing for compliments. I mean really. My sessions supposed to be all about me. Not about you and your midlife crisis as a man. I took a break because the last session was overwhelming. Not because of the work. But because you told one "hot white guy" joke too many. I'm emotionally exhausted from life, my past, and expectations alone. Lord knows I can not handle stroking your ego when my husband expect that enough. Hence, leading to my insecurities about my body image and ageing in general.
I know you will never be able to tell me I am gorgeous, breathtaking, an amazing woman, a brilliant woman. No, you are not allowed to tell me. But I did expect my sessions to eventually lead to a better understanding & acceptance of myself. Not me once again doing what I have been doing my entire life... Making males feel good about themselves. Constantly stroking their ego, tending to their needs, helping them fix themselves, supporting, being there... * LONG SIGH EXHALE * That felt good to finally say.