Haven't been here much on this thread lately. I'm sorry about that. Hugs to everyone that is feeling down.

Things have been okay I guess. I saw a psychiatrist who recommended a day program and Lexapro. The Lexapro is fine but my insurance sucks and covers next to nothing so it's just not feasible. I have no doubt that it would help me out though. The pdoc said that I have to have a physical before he prescribes any meds. Just the thought of that makes my head hurt. I have no motivation right now to find a dr, make the appt and then to go to the appt.

What else has happened? Oh, I've lost interest in eating and I've lost 15 pounds within 2 months. Which doesn't sound too bad, but I'm underweight now. In a way I don't really care. I kind of wish I would just disintegrate to nothingness.

I have this habit of making friends with older women. Women who could be my mother. And I finally figured it out. I think it's because my own mother and my stepmom have dished out so much emotional abuse that I look for people to "mother" me. Is that weird or what? I'm in my late 20's so I should be able to take care of myself. I don't have a lot of friends my age. I never have. My T is actually a few years younger than me but she exhibits the same traits that I wish my mom would show towards me. So I have gotten attached to her. Is this transference? I think so. It only makes it worse that my T will be leaving on June 28th, so we only have a few sessions left. Sigh.

Sorry this post is all over the place topic-wise! I guess I have a lot on my mind. :/