Thanks again. Every response has been so helpful, I think the biggest thing is knowing that I am not alone in this. Mastodon, I like your example of talking to your T. When I was in therapy, I definitely gave a general overview of some of the abuse and neglect that went on in my childhood home. I never talk specifically about anything, because I do get so tongue tied. I have gotten what you have called "body memories" too...just ICK!! It's a feeling that is indescribable. Maybe someday I will be able to describe it to a t.

I honestly didn't like IFS and/or EMDR, I won't try Somatic stuff because I just put it in the same category. I know some of you use that, and I don't want to offend, it just really isn't for me at all. I don't like "touchy-feely" therapies! (even though I know no one touches you). I prefer to stick with things that are better known to have results.