More and more I just want to stay at home with my 4 cats. Although, I have a lot of friends and am constantly invited to events. I do not have any social anxiety or fears of people and social situations.

In fact, I have often been the life of the party.

Yet, as much as I enjoy my friends I very much enjoy spending time with myself and cats. For example, tonight I was invited to a social event. At first I intended to go but forgot all about it while at work. Meanwhile, I had my heart set on going grocery shopping so that is exactly what I did.

I feel nervous and anxious about not putting energy into my social life. Also, I would like to meet a man to date but staying at home makes it much more difficult.

I have a full time job that I very much enjoy. I like being at work and feeling connected to my co-workers. Also, I have a lot of projects at home and very much love taking care of myself and home.

After those things I just don't seem to have energy left over to go out. I don't really understand myself given the above. There is a voice in me that wants to yell at the top of my lungs "LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!"

I would appreciate any comments or suggestions, etc.