I totally agree with you about wanting to be normal. I hate when I tell my therapist that I want to be normal she always says what's normal. All I say is you know what I mean. I know that she means that everyone has something that they are having to deal with. But that doesn't make me feel any better. I just want to be able to wake up, go through my days and weeks without having to think about how to cope and deal with life. Thanks for expressing your feeling in a way that I can relate. God bless you.