I am also very good at hiding things. But, I've gotten less good at it more recently. My explosive anger is an example of that. I used to be like a still pool. I learend to hide everything because as a kid I got the "you're too sensitive" talk a lot. Also, knowing people don't care, that teaches you to hide it because why bother?

When I was about 11 or 12 years old I wrote a song, which I called "The House of Joy," but it was a sarcastic title, because it's about how if you're feeling depressed, don't bother telling anyone because they won't care. People only want you to show happiness, even if fake. There's even a suicidal line in the song. I still remember all the words.

I performed the song for my afterschool program, we had like a talent show thing. And, that's the diffrerence between then and now. No one batted an eyelash that a 10 year old girl is singing an up-beat song about why you should just hide your feelings and she's considering suicide. Maybe today someone would freak out.