seeing a guy for the second time tomorrow (1st date was amazing)- nervous. I hope he doesn't hurt me - used to being hurt. Don't know if I can handle being hurt... scared i'll fall apart if it doesn't work out - just feel too much like a basket case lately... feel can't handle anything - surprised he hasn't noticed yet - hope he doesn't. Need to hide effexor and sleeping pills in case he ever came to my house - how embarrassing would that be?