we talked, and I am allowed a bit more lee-way. The concern is over my impulsiveness and ability to keep myself safe. If I had benefits, I would be in a hospital right now. Since I don't the only thing the county would do is contain and drug me in a really disgusting place. I can do that at home (I have anxiety meds that kick my ***, and I at least have my comfort items to help keep me safe).
They are worried, and I get that, but like you said, sometimes they just make it worse.