I hate it. I'm here for work because I am a practical person, but I hate hate hate hate being isolated. It's very much a trigger and is the reason why I am going about getting diagnosed and on meds. I hate feeling trapped somewhere, and boxed in. I'm so stuck here, and it's too small of a place for me to really even escape for a night - there's no where to go, and too few people to really have multiple social groups. They'll all know each other to some extent.

And I HAVE to spend my time in places where I could run into coworkers, parents of students, other friends. I can't escape and I have no variety and I need to have both of those. It's like a larger scale version of the house I grew up in - I can't really act like me without having to worry a great deal about how it will be taken.

That, and a lot of the variety and just being able to get away for even a few hours - those are some of my major coping strategies for myself, and I have zero access to them here.

Overall... it's horrendous. I've got a nice job and a nice apartment and the friends I've made so far are quite nice (keep in mind that within a year I've gone through 3 groups of friends already!)... and yet being stuck here kills me. It's bad for my depressions and it's bad for my Ups.

/end rant!